Broken...

My life is broken... I have forgiven the person who caused this but I just cant forgive myself for not communicating with the one on the other line. Nearly used violence but I knew it wasnt the answer... The only way for me to forgive myself hides from me. I dont know what to do at all... A gift, a favour, an apology? What would be the answer? Is the friendship over? I hope not, I really do. If, only if I was not careless and did the right thing, where would I be standing? Im not as happy as I used to be... A chance to make it right is all I need... If this is the will of God, then I would painfully, let it be...